Who Knows?

You know those days when you have so many emotions that it feels like there is no way to deal with them but to cry? Okay, if you're not a girl you probably don't have those days. Okay, maybe no one has those days. But I do. And today is one of them. I don't make any sense to myself right now. This probably means that this blog post will make no sense to anyone else. Probably you don't need to bother reading it. I just have nothing else to say, so I am going let out all of my silly emotions on this computer. So, here it is.

Today I am feeling:

Exhausted from work

Frustrated with work

Tired from lack of sleep due to work

Excited about the money that I am making from working

Stressed because I promised myself that I would work on learning Spanish all summer so that I could handle Spanish 3 in the fall; but the only Spanish I have spoken all summer is when I say "un poco" instead of "a little."

Frustrated that I haven't accomplished a single thing that I wanted to this summer

Thrilled about our family vacation to McCall next week

Resentful to people who get to play and have fun all day while I am at work for 10-12 hours in the blazing sun

Tired of feeling like the only person who is not in love these days

Frustrated that other people being in love brings me so many mixed emotions

Stressed and frustrated about the fact that I haven't gone running for over a week now, and afraid that I am going to lose all of the progress that I had made

Annoyed that I have zero social life and that my friends are spread out all over the country/world...except for the couple that are here...whom I love having here

Afraid of losing people that I love

Sick of feeling like I have a zillion things to do but never having the motivation to do any of them

And tonight, just plain grumpy for no apparent reason.

Well, there you go. I told you not to read it. There are plenty more but sometimes it's too hard to even figure out what it is exactly that's making me feel the way I do. I realize that these are all silly little things. I really have zero problems compared to so many other people. However, sometimes you just need to whine a teeny bit. Tonight is one of those nights. Hopefully my week of the best vacation ever will help me chill and clear my head a little bit. Sorry to disappoint with this rambly and whiny post. I will do better next time.